Day 5, Tuesday 9th March

Well today was pretty meh. Felt as good as yesterday, not any better, this was when I started to mentally give up a bit. I just wanted to go home back to my bed and not be sick anymore! My mum stayed over 2 nights in a row, which was really helpful untill she fell asleep that when I tried to get her attention at 2am she wouldnt wake up? brilliant. Actually no, I shouldn't be so harsh.. but when you're in pain and can't reach the nurse bell and noone can hear you.. its a feeling you'll never understand untill you've experienced it yourself. Its that impossible to imagine yourself, really it is.

At this stage I still couldn't eat, I think they were trying to get me to drink a little bit but I really didn't want to seeing as I knew what would happen. Hmmmm. I was more mobile now I think but still felt gross.

OH WAIT. it was today, that I had my huge melt-down of wanting to go home, I remember this conversation with a nurse:

Nurse: why are you crying emiko? are you sore?
Me: No, no, I just need to cry it makes me less nausesous and I just want to go home.
Nurse: Do you want your mum here or something?
Me: No I'm all good not seeing people, I just want to go home. But don't worry I'm not sore, just let me cry. (Yeah I was pretty much smiling while saying this while crying, strange I know.)
Nurse: Ohhkay, we just worry.

Oh the countless times I'd have to tell them that hahaha oh well :)

OHHHH and theres like hardly any pictures on here cause I've decided I'll just make a video at the end with all of them so its easier!